Grief feels like nausea. A heaviness in my chest. A desire to ignore the obvious: G is gone. Grief is too hard to be faced. So I...

6 year olds shouldn't lose their dads. Not dads so sweet and loving as G. College students shouldn't have cardiac arrests and be life...

For Grief Share, I'm supposed to journal about what I miss the most about G. It's hard to even know where to begin. I miss his presence...

September 19th. 9 months since G died. Over the last two nights when I lay down in bed, I have been flooded with memories of the night...

I need margin in my life. It feels like a rat race. Being a solo parent. Working. Doing life alone. It is relentless. Part of it is...

Today is P's first day of school - ever. He's been homeschooled up until now, but homeschooling isn't an option for widows (at least...

Since G died, I have dreamt about him probably the majority of the nights. It was every single night for months. Sometimes it was really...

Today is 8 months since G died. It's been 8 months since he sat across from me at the table where I am sitting now and drank a glass of...

The heaviness just doesn't go away. The ache in my chest. 7 months... almost 8. My first full week of work almost coming to a close. 5...

I never thought grief would feel like this after 7 months. It feels like a pit in my stomach, a burning in my chest, a heaviness in my...

Today is Wednesday and G's Memorial Service is on Saturday. 3 days. Yesterday, P and I went to our church for a final planning meeting...

G's Memorial Service is in 5 days. Last week I cried a lot just thinking about it. My grief felt so raw. The reality that he is really...

One of the things that comes with outliving your spouse, especially at a young age like me, is the necessity to keep going. If I was 88...

I spend a lot of time feeling alone. There's a type of aloneness that comes with losing a spouse that is hard to explain. It permeates...

We're at our favorite beach in OBX this week with G's brothers. I knew it was going to be a mix of fun and hard, but it's different than...

G loved the 4th of July. Not because he was very patriotic but because he loved fireworks. As a kid, he poured over fireworks catalogs,...

G's memorial service is a few weeks away. COVID was in full swing when G died. There were mandatory masks and social distancing, limited...

Yesterday, I got a text from my brother-in-law about Arby's. He had just eaten there and thought that maybe G liked Arby's but couldn't...

Today marks our 14th anniversary. G isn't here but I still feel married to him in my heart. I wear my rings and cannot imagine taking...

It's our first Father's Day without G. I woke up feeling numb to this. Yesterday was full of grief and sorrow. A wave of grief hit. So...