I've been reading through the blog we kept when G was waiting for his transplant. It is surreal. Sept. 30, 2010 I wrote all about his...

There is a temptation in grief to romanticize the past. To divide your life into the categories of good (when your person was still...

I realized today that I can't find my future while I'm running away from my past. Life has changed so much since G died - this is true. ...

I've spent 2.5 hours today crying and processing all that God is doing in my heart. My counselor says this is a landmark day. Like the...

Why is a big question. And it's one I don't like to ask. Because there aren't any answers on this side of Heaven. Why did G die? Why...

I'm sitting at Panera this morning and there's a couple outside the window. Neither are wearing wedding rings. Both are probably in...

All of life is grace. Yesterday, I was walking to my car after meeting with a student on campus and feeling happy. The sun was shining....

Yesterday I went to a co-worker's wedding. My first wedding since G died. First wedding without him by my side since my brother got...

A picture brought back a flood of memories. Christmas morning 2018. P opening a gift. G sitting up beside him - but slumped over...

"No good thing does he withhold from those who walk uprightly." - Psalm 84:11 I came across this verse this morning in my Psalms...

Looking at G's life, you wouldn't think that he had been delivered from trouble. Trouble seemed to be a present companion. Abused as a...

In just over 3 hours, it will be a new year. 2022. G wasn't alive for 2021 and I remember hating that we were entering into a year in...

A year ago today - actually 35 minutes from now- we buried G. I looked through pictures of that day yesterday because I honestly don't...

One year ago, I woke up a little early, surprised to find G standing by the bed and a light on. He was restless and told me he'd been...

Otherwise known at 364 days after G died. His favorite way to refer to someone who loved Jesus dying and going to be with him was...

It's been almost 1 year since G died. I have so many mixed emotions and so many confused thoughts. On one hand, this has felt like the...

One year ago, I could never have imagined what this next week would bring. One year ago was a normal Saturday. Sure, one affected by G...

The night before G died, we got him comfortable for the first time in at least a week. I had spent much of the previous day on the phone...

I called the hospital's billing department this morning, thinking there was a simple clerical mistake. I had paid a bill - a bill that I...

Thanksgiving. My first one without G since he came with me to Massachusetts in 2006. He had just had his first cardiac arrest,...