I've been reading through the blog we kept when G was waiting for his transplant. It is surreal. Sept. 30, 2010 I wrote all about his...

I feel angry. Furiously angry. Like it's welling up in my gut and has no place to go. There words feel too tame. I feel sick with...

I realized today that I can't find my future while I'm running away from my past. Life has changed so much since G died - this is true. ...

My goodness, how is my boy finishing 2nd grade tomorrow? A grade that G wasn't here for at all. He's up to my shoulders now and growing...

I've spent 2.5 hours today crying and processing all that God is doing in my heart. My counselor says this is a landmark day. Like the...

Why is a big question. And it's one I don't like to ask. Because there aren't any answers on this side of Heaven. Why did G die? Why...

I'm sitting at Panera this morning and there's a couple outside the window. Neither are wearing wedding rings. Both are probably in...

"No good thing does he withhold from those who walk uprightly." - Psalm 84:11 I came across this verse this morning in my Psalms...

Looking at G's life, you wouldn't think that he had been delivered from trouble. Trouble seemed to be a present companion. Abused as a...

A year ago today - actually 35 minutes from now- we buried G. I looked through pictures of that day yesterday because I honestly don't...

I made it to the other side of yesterday. By God's grace alone I lived through another day that I never would've thought was possible...

One year ago, I woke up a little early, surprised to find G standing by the bed and a light on. He was restless and told me he'd been...

Otherwise known at 364 days after G died. His favorite way to refer to someone who loved Jesus dying and going to be with him was...

It's been almost 1 year since G died. I have so many mixed emotions and so many confused thoughts. On one hand, this has felt like the...

One year ago, I could never have imagined what this next week would bring. One year ago was a normal Saturday. Sure, one affected by G...

Nerds Rope was G's favorite candy to get in his Christmas stocking. I learned this the first Christmas we spent together at his family's...

I called the hospital's billing department this morning, thinking there was a simple clerical mistake. I had paid a bill - a bill that I...

Thanksgiving. My first one without G since he came with me to Massachusetts in 2006. He had just had his first cardiac arrest,...

My rings. I'm so aware of them lately. My hands tell you that I am married. Unavailable. I have a husband. He is here - present...

I'm always looking for an escape route. When G was sick, it was sometimes denial, sometimes anger, sometimes fantasizing about what life...