I woke up feeling okay. After wrapping my mind around what day it was (the usual wake up and figure out what's on my plate for the day)...

Today I turn 38. Greg will always be 35. These numbers feel so strange. He was always 12 days older than me. How can I now be 3 years...

It's the second day of fall, and the first day that it feels like it. I'm sitting here wearing a fleece jacket, jeans, and my favorite...

I feel like God is leading me in a new direction. I've been trying to hold on to the life that I had with G. As if holding on to that...

Yesterday P went to his second day-long grief camp, nearly a year after his first. I've tried to look back in my memory of what it was...

A friend recently asked me why I still believe in God after everything I've been through. It was a genuine question, asked from a place...

In the early days of grief, I felt like people were treating me like a puppy or perhaps a toddler. As if they could somehow get excited ...

My goodness, how is my boy finishing 2nd grade tomorrow? A grade that G wasn't here for at all. He's up to my shoulders now and growing...

I need a new dream. I've been waiting for someone to give one to me, and I've felt aimless. Maybe remarriage has become my new dream. ...

Today I'm taking a big leap. A trust fall off a cliff, waiting for Jesus to catch me. We fly to Bogota, Colombia today. First time back...

I took my wedding band off of my right hand last night. And now I'm down to one ring. Later this week, I travel with my son to a country...

It's April. The month I've been dreading. The month I've tried to put off by looking the other way, not flipping the calendar to take a...

Shortly after G died, I began hearing the metaphor that grief comes in waves. It recedes and comes, recedes and comes, over and over...

“But no one except Lucy knew that as it circled the mast it had whispered to her, "Courage, dear heart," and the voice, she felt sure,...

What do I need... I mean really need... to survive this life? I used to think (let's go back to high school here) that it was my horse. ...

We tend to obsess over finding God's will for our lives. I see this all the time in the college students that I work with. One season is...

For a long time now, I've been saying that I feel like I was dropped off of a cliff into a dark room. A room with no doors and no...

Only Jesus can tell me who I am Only Jesus sees Only Jesus loves me fully with a love that can satisfy Only Jesus knows my future Only...

We went to St. Thomas in January of 2020. I was so worried. So many things could go wrong. What if G got Zika? What if he had a health...

"I still remember the accident. Who could forget the horror of it? But I also remember what has happened since. Who would want to...