P goes to grief camp on Friday. I wish there was one for me too. I just got off of the caregivers orientation Zoom meeting. Two other...

I spend a lot of time feeling alone. There's a type of aloneness that comes with losing a spouse that is hard to explain. It permeates...

We're at our favorite beach in OBX this week with G's brothers. I knew it was going to be a mix of fun and hard, but it's different than...

G loved the 4th of July. Not because he was very patriotic but because he loved fireworks. As a kid, he poured over fireworks catalogs,...

G's memorial service is a few weeks away. COVID was in full swing when G died. There were mandatory masks and social distancing, limited...

Yesterday, I got a text from my brother-in-law about Arby's. He had just eaten there and thought that maybe G liked Arby's but couldn't...

Today marks our 14th anniversary. G isn't here but I still feel married to him in my heart. I wear my rings and cannot imagine taking...

It's our first Father's Day without G. I woke up feeling numb to this. Yesterday was full of grief and sorrow. A wave of grief hit. So...

Today is the 6 month anniversary of G's death. My gosh - how is that possible. I spent the last 4 weeks living at a frantic pace as I...

G understood so many things better than I do, and one of those things was walking with Jesus. Illness has a way of clarifying things -...

I had a chance to go on a walk and think for the first time in weeks. And of course I started thinking about G. Gosh have I been missing...

The days, maybe even weeks, right after G died, I could barely eat. I felt so nauseous. So incredibly sick to my stomach. Grief felt...

I'm in a new stage of grief. The first was survival. Survival was all I could hope for and all I could manage. Each day felt like a...

There's a pit in my stomach tonight. That old familiar achy feeling. A hole burning in my chest. Sometimes grief feels like pain, like...

I was feeling sad tonight and missing G, so P pulled out his "Daddy Memory Box" for us to look at. Watching my son pull out what he has...

I'm feeling really down tonight. My heart feels heavy. G would call it "feeling blue". 5 months and two days. Yesterday I sobbed when...

Today is the 5 month anniversary of G's death. I'm sitting at the table facing "his chair", the one he sat in that last morning as we...

I'm finding that it takes a lot of courage to be a solo parent. No one would ever call me a courageous person. I'm an enneagram 6 after...

I think I cried my way through April. Easter, all three birthdays, the 4 month anniversary of G's death. My first time having to...

Late last night I received a text from a friend checking to see if I have enough gas in my car. I had heard some rumblings about gas...