Today is the 6 month anniversary of G's death. My gosh - how is that possible. I spent the last 4 weeks living at a frantic pace as I...

I'm in a new stage of grief. The first was survival. Survival was all I could hope for and all I could manage. Each day felt like a...

There's a pit in my stomach tonight. That old familiar achy feeling. A hole burning in my chest. Sometimes grief feels like pain, like...

I was feeling sad tonight and missing G, so P pulled out his "Daddy Memory Box" for us to look at. Watching my son pull out what he has...

I'm finding that it takes a lot of courage to be a solo parent. No one would ever call me a courageous person. I'm an enneagram 6 after...

Late last night I received a text from a friend checking to see if I have enough gas in my car. I had heard some rumblings about gas...

By 4:45pm today I had left and returned to my house 4 times. It was a non-stop day of parenting and squeezing in school work and other...

One of the phrases I heard seemingly throughout my whole life is that "it takes a village to raise a child". I never wanted it to take a...

I'm feeling stronger today. It might be from getting through April - birthday month in our house. First Easter without G, P's first...

Being with others helps. I need to remember that. It's something I dread a lot of the time. Rarely is there space for a grieving widow...

Usually G would wake up before me on my birthday (one of the RARE days he did this) and let me sleep in. Or if he didn't wake up first,...

It's the night before my 36th birthday. My first birthday that I won't celebrate with G since I turned 20. We started dating when I was...

Time marches on. Today is April 17, which means that in two days it will be 4 months since G died. 4 months! How can that be? It's...

At first I think it was just wrapping my mind around the reality that G was gone. He died. He DIED. Just comprehending that. He's not...

My grief was intense today. So intense that I almost texted a friend a message saying that it felt like grief in the beginning. I spent...

Today was G's first birthday in Heaven. It is late and I am really tired but I wanted to write down some things about today. I gave P...

Tomorrow is G's birthday. He would be 36. It's his first birthday in Heaven. It's his first birthday that I won't be celebrating since...

We got a fish today. Probably the best decision I've made in a while. It's amazing how much joy "Fishy" has brought to us already. ...

I made it. We made it. I feel like there is an ocean of grief under the surface but if you stay busy enough there's no way for it to...

I'm sitting on the bed with candy wrappers next to me having just spent an hour looking up stupid reality TV gossip online. I'm numbing...