Feeling Stronger

I'm feeling stronger today.

It might be from getting through April - birthday month in our house. First Easter without G, P's first birthday without G, G's first birthday since he died, and my first birthday without G. Wow. Even just seeing that in writing makes me realize how much we had to face this month. And the death of P's fish (first pet) on G's birthday. And my grandmother going into hospice. Our plans getting changed around and me starting to work on the classes I am taking this summer. First parents meeting at P's new school. My gosh - this list just keeps going.

I've been pushing myself hard the last two days to get a lot done. I'm making progress on planning G's memorial service for July. I'm making progress on my classes. I'm hitting deadlines and finishing things like a list of pictures for G's picture album from the funeral home.

There are so many firsts ahead of me and so many tough days I know. But today I feel stronger and that is something worth celebrating.