Here I am, two days into a conference I've been to 12 times with G. And I miss.. J. There've been moments of missing G for sure. I feel...

The family leaves and the loneliness returns. I am searching for something - someone- to take away the loneliness. P isn't the answer. ...

Last night was a bit of a disaster. Not in the sense that it did any lasting damage. But it sure hurt my pride and was full of bad...

It's been almost 1 year since G died. I have so many mixed emotions and so many confused thoughts. On one hand, this has felt like the...

I did it last night. During my GriefShare group we watched a video about Heaven. In the video, they discussed that it's important to be...

The night before G died, we got him comfortable for the first time in at least a week. I had spent much of the previous day on the phone...

One of the unexpected effects of G's death is that I'm getting to know myself. That question: Who am I? Who am I when it's just me? Who...

I've been distracting myself lately. Day dreaming about a future that could be. Imagining myself in a new relationship. Rescued in a...

My rings. I'm so aware of them lately. My hands tell you that I am married. Unavailable. I have a husband. He is here - present...

I'm always looking for an escape route. When G was sick, it was sometimes denial, sometimes anger, sometimes fantasizing about what life...

"For my father and my mother have forsaken me, but the LORD will take me in." I feel forsaken sometimes. Alone. Forgotten maybe - but...

Grief feels like nausea. A heaviness in my chest. A desire to ignore the obvious: G is gone. Grief is too hard to be faced. So I...

For Grief Share, I'm supposed to journal about what I miss the most about G. It's hard to even know where to begin. I miss his presence...

I need margin in my life. It feels like a rat race. Being a solo parent. Working. Doing life alone. It is relentless. Part of it is...

Today is P's first day of school - ever. He's been homeschooled up until now, but homeschooling isn't an option for widows (at least...

P went to a grief camp for kids yesterday by the Eluna Network. What a gift it was. He spent a day learning how to process his feelings...

One of the things that comes with outliving your spouse, especially at a young age like me, is the necessity to keep going. If I was 88...

I spend a lot of time feeling alone. There's a type of aloneness that comes with losing a spouse that is hard to explain. It permeates...

It's our first Father's Day without G. I woke up feeling numb to this. Yesterday was full of grief and sorrow. A wave of grief hit. So...

I was feeling sad tonight and missing G, so P pulled out his "Daddy Memory Box" for us to look at. Watching my son pull out what he has...