We're at our favorite beach in OBX this week with G's brothers. I knew it was going to be a mix of fun and hard, but it's different than...

G loved the 4th of July. Not because he was very patriotic but because he loved fireworks. As a kid, he poured over fireworks catalogs,...

G's memorial service is a few weeks away. COVID was in full swing when G died. There were mandatory masks and social distancing, limited...

Yesterday, I got a text from my brother-in-law about Arby's. He had just eaten there and thought that maybe G liked Arby's but couldn't...

Today marks our 14th anniversary. G isn't here but I still feel married to him in my heart. I wear my rings and cannot imagine taking...

It's our first Father's Day without G. I woke up feeling numb to this. Yesterday was full of grief and sorrow. A wave of grief hit. So...

Today is the 6 month anniversary of G's death. My gosh - how is that possible. I spent the last 4 weeks living at a frantic pace as I...

I had a chance to go on a walk and think for the first time in weeks. And of course I started thinking about G. Gosh have I been missing...

The days, maybe even weeks, right after G died, I could barely eat. I felt so nauseous. So incredibly sick to my stomach. Grief felt...

I'm in a new stage of grief. The first was survival. Survival was all I could hope for and all I could manage. Each day felt like a...

There's a pit in my stomach tonight. That old familiar achy feeling. A hole burning in my chest. Sometimes grief feels like pain, like...

I was feeling sad tonight and missing G, so P pulled out his "Daddy Memory Box" for us to look at. Watching my son pull out what he has...

I'm feeling really down tonight. My heart feels heavy. G would call it "feeling blue". 5 months and two days. Yesterday I sobbed when...

Today is the 5 month anniversary of G's death. I'm sitting at the table facing "his chair", the one he sat in that last morning as we...

I'm finding that it takes a lot of courage to be a solo parent. No one would ever call me a courageous person. I'm an enneagram 6 after...

I think I cried my way through April. Easter, all three birthdays, the 4 month anniversary of G's death. My first time having to...

For weeks now I've been working on the slideshow for G's memorial service. Taking thousands and thousands of pictures and sorting...