A year ago today - actually 35 minutes from now- we buried G. I looked through pictures of that day yesterday because I honestly don't...

For years, the story of Lazarus in the Bible has stood out to me. A friend of Jesus' becomes ill - deathly ill. Jesus is a mere 20 miles...

One of the hardest parts of grief lately is realizing that I have to let go of G. I have to let go of our relationship and the life we...

I remember that I ran into my neighbor - I think it was on the way to the hospital or maybe when I was outside on the phone with the...

September 28, 2020 is a day I won't forget. Looking back now, I see it as the beginning of the end. Yes, G had been hospitalized in...

For Grief Share, I'm supposed to journal about what I miss the most about G. It's hard to even know where to begin. I miss his presence...

September 19th. 9 months since G died. Over the last two nights when I lay down in bed, I have been flooded with memories of the night...

G's memorial service is a few weeks away. COVID was in full swing when G died. There were mandatory masks and social distancing, limited...

I'm in a new stage of grief. The first was survival. Survival was all I could hope for and all I could manage. Each day felt like a...

There's a pit in my stomach tonight. That old familiar achy feeling. A hole burning in my chest. Sometimes grief feels like pain, like...

I was feeling sad tonight and missing G, so P pulled out his "Daddy Memory Box" for us to look at. Watching my son pull out what he has...

I'm feeling really down tonight. My heart feels heavy. G would call it "feeling blue". 5 months and two days. Yesterday I sobbed when...

Today is the 5 month anniversary of G's death. I'm sitting at the table facing "his chair", the one he sat in that last morning as we...

I think I cried my way through April. Easter, all three birthdays, the 4 month anniversary of G's death. My first time having to...

Late last night I received a text from a friend checking to see if I have enough gas in my car. I had heard some rumblings about gas...

By 4:45pm today I had left and returned to my house 4 times. It was a non-stop day of parenting and squeezing in school work and other...

For weeks now I've been working on the slideshow for G's memorial service. Taking thousands and thousands of pictures and sorting...

After so many weeks of intense grief in April - so many firsts without G - I find myself feeling numb again. I want to cry but I usually...

Usually G would wake up before me on my birthday (one of the RARE days he did this) and let me sleep in. Or if he didn't wake up first,...

It has been a rough, rough week. Rough month, really. April has had our first road rip without G. Easter, P's birthday, G's birthday,...