By 4:45pm today I had left and returned to my house 4 times. It was a non-stop day of parenting and squeezing in school work and other...

For weeks now I've been working on the slideshow for G's memorial service. Taking thousands and thousands of pictures and sorting...

I haven't posted in a few days for a couple reasons. 1 - my dad is visiting and its often harder to have time to think and reflect when...

After so many weeks of intense grief in April - so many firsts without G - I find myself feeling numb again. I want to cry but I usually...

One of the phrases I heard seemingly throughout my whole life is that "it takes a village to raise a child". I never wanted it to take a...

I'm feeling stronger today. It might be from getting through April - birthday month in our house. First Easter without G, P's first...

Being with others helps. I need to remember that. It's something I dread a lot of the time. Rarely is there space for a grieving widow...

Usually G would wake up before me on my birthday (one of the RARE days he did this) and let me sleep in. Or if he didn't wake up first,...

It's the night before my 36th birthday. My first birthday that I won't celebrate with G since I turned 20. We started dating when I was...

It has been a rough, rough week. Rough month, really. April has had our first road rip without G. Easter, P's birthday, G's birthday,...

Time marches on. Today is April 17, which means that in two days it will be 4 months since G died. 4 months! How can that be? It's...

At first I think it was just wrapping my mind around the reality that G was gone. He died. He DIED. Just comprehending that. He's not...

My grief was intense today. So intense that I almost texted a friend a message saying that it felt like grief in the beginning. I spent...

Today was G's first birthday in Heaven. It is late and I am really tired but I wanted to write down some things about today. I gave P...

Tomorrow is G's birthday. He would be 36. It's his first birthday in Heaven. It's his first birthday that I won't be celebrating since...

We got a fish today. Probably the best decision I've made in a while. It's amazing how much joy "Fishy" has brought to us already. ...

We got home last night and are back surrounded by G's things. It is so comforting - his chair, his books, his slippers... At the same...

I made it. We made it. I feel like there is an ocean of grief under the surface but if you stay busy enough there's no way for it to...

I'm sitting on the bed with candy wrappers next to me having just spent an hour looking up stupid reality TV gossip online. I'm numbing...

My thoughts are muddled today. It's our first Easter without G. We are at my sister's house and so it hasn't felt real - not the way...