This morning, as I spent time reading the Psalms and listening to my favorite podcast - some new perspective came to mind that I felt I...

Grief feels like nausea. A heaviness in my chest. A desire to ignore the obvious: G is gone. Grief is too hard to be faced. So I...

I remember that I ran into my neighbor - I think it was on the way to the hospital or maybe when I was outside on the phone with the...

September 28, 2020 is a day I won't forget. Looking back now, I see it as the beginning of the end. Yes, G had been hospitalized in...

September 19th. 9 months since G died. Over the last two nights when I lay down in bed, I have been flooded with memories of the night...

Since G died, I have dreamt about him probably the majority of the nights. It was every single night for months. Sometimes it was really...

I've thought to myself many times since G died that if I could just understand what happened, I could maybe accept that he's gone. I know...

G's Memorial Service is in 5 days. Last week I cried a lot just thinking about it. My grief felt so raw. The reality that he is really...

G loved the 4th of July. Not because he was very patriotic but because he loved fireworks. As a kid, he poured over fireworks catalogs,...

G's memorial service is a few weeks away. COVID was in full swing when G died. There were mandatory masks and social distancing, limited...

Yesterday, I got a text from my brother-in-law about Arby's. He had just eaten there and thought that maybe G liked Arby's but couldn't...

G understood so many things better than I do, and one of those things was walking with Jesus. Illness has a way of clarifying things -...

I had a chance to go on a walk and think for the first time in weeks. And of course I started thinking about G. Gosh have I been missing...

G was chronically ill for over a decade. Really, starting in 2008 we began dealing with quickly worsening, scary health situations. He...

Tomorrow the DNA test kit should arrive. It's a 50% chance that P inherited ARVD/C from G - the genetic condition that caused his first...

Is G's life a tragedy? His story is one of abuse as a young child by the very people who should've protected him. Of painful years of...

My counselor reminded me yet again that G's death was a severe mercy. In my grief and longing to see him again, it's easy to forget just...

This morning I was reading my devotional off my phone and I noticed that my left hand was shaking. It felt really odd and uncomfortable....

Today is the 2 month anniversary of G's death. Yesterday I finally was able to back through some of the emails that were sent between me...

Regret is hard. Looking back at the day G died, the week G died, the months before G died, I wish I could change some of the things I...