A year ago today - actually 35 minutes from now- we buried G. I looked through pictures of that day yesterday because I honestly don't...

Here I am, two days into a conference I've been to 12 times with G. And I miss.. J. There've been moments of missing G for sure. I feel...

The family leaves and the loneliness returns. I am searching for something - someone- to take away the loneliness. P isn't the answer. ...

I made it to the other side of yesterday. By God's grace alone I lived through another day that I never would've thought was possible...

Otherwise known at 364 days after G died. His favorite way to refer to someone who loved Jesus dying and going to be with him was...

Last night was a bit of a disaster. Not in the sense that it did any lasting damage. But it sure hurt my pride and was full of bad...

It's been almost 1 year since G died. I have so many mixed emotions and so many confused thoughts. On one hand, this has felt like the...

I did it last night. During my GriefShare group we watched a video about Heaven. In the video, they discussed that it's important to be...

I drove to my meeting yesterday - Christmas cards and Nerds Rope in a bag, ready to be shared. But the tears started welling up below...

Nerds Rope was G's favorite candy to get in his Christmas stocking. I learned this the first Christmas we spent together at his family's...

Last night at Grief Share, I was reminded that there is danger in taking on the identity of a griever. I am in grief, yes. I am a widow....

I called the hospital's billing department this morning, thinking there was a simple clerical mistake. I had paid a bill - a bill that I...

One of the unexpected effects of G's death is that I'm getting to know myself. That question: Who am I? Who am I when it's just me? Who...

Thanksgiving. My first one without G since he came with me to Massachusetts in 2006. He had just had his first cardiac arrest,...

Life is about Jesus So let me hope in Him The lover of my soul Who saved me from my sin Christmas is about Jesus So let me rejoice in Him...

I've been distracting myself lately. Day dreaming about a future that could be. Imagining myself in a new relationship. Rescued in a...

My rings. I'm so aware of them lately. My hands tell you that I am married. Unavailable. I have a husband. He is here - present...

I'm always looking for an escape route. When G was sick, it was sometimes denial, sometimes anger, sometimes fantasizing about what life...

"For my father and my mother have forsaken me, but the LORD will take me in." I feel forsaken sometimes. Alone. Forgotten maybe - but...

This morning, as I spent time reading the Psalms and listening to my favorite podcast - some new perspective came to mind that I felt I...