My brother in law came today. P and I have been alone for 9 days - our longest stretch so far. It has been HARD for both of us. Having...

About a month ago I tried to go to my online Bible study. I thought it would be encouraging to see the other women and hear Truth from...

This morning I was reading my devotional off my phone and I noticed that my left hand was shaking. It felt really odd and uncomfortable....

Today is the 2 month anniversary of G's death. Yesterday I finally was able to back through some of the emails that were sent between me...

I think the most comforting words I've heard in this whole process is that what I'm experiencing is normal. Grief is unlike anything else....

I woke up feeling okay this morning. Even hopeful! As if I could keep going and life might have joys in it. Maybe there is a future...

We drove home today. The drive went so well and P had a great attitude. Even though yesterday he was furious at the idea of coming home....

I completed my 4th private school application for my son today. Part of it was a parental review of the child's behavior which included...

I slept for 10 hours last night. What a difference it makes to not be in our room, our home, our bed. Everything at night screams G's...

I haven't posted in a while - this week was crazy. It was our first week home alone since G died and it was utterly exhausting. I don't...

Our second day on our own found me lying face down in the snow crying at one point. Because the whole morning was a battle of the wills...

Regret is hard. Looking back at the day G died, the week G died, the months before G died, I wish I could change some of the things I...

Every night I look at pictures. Starting in 2007 (the ones on this computer), I've been going through - adding them to special memory...

Grief affects everything. I am usually very moved by the people around me - caring about their struggles, sympathetic to their worries,...

I usually write these posts at night. Night time is when the grief hits the hardest. My busyness has run its course. I've finally...

Tonight is our second night at home alone - just me and P. We were busy with driving my mom part way home, grocery deliveries, playing,...

Fear is an old enemy of mine. But it's raised its ugly head lately. My husband died. It feels like all bets are off. Trust God. But my...

Today was the first day in a long time that felt like it went pretty good: Pancakes for breakfast (P's request) Read more of The Grieving...

"If your son doesn't get into our school, would you be homeschooling again next year?" "No, I can't. My husband died." Ugh, how I wish...

The last few days have been full of stuff to do. Mostly applications for private school for P next fall. Another hard reality to face -...