At first I think it was just wrapping my mind around the reality that G was gone. He died. He DIED. Just comprehending that. He's not...

My grief was intense today. So intense that I almost texted a friend a message saying that it felt like grief in the beginning. I spent...

Tomorrow is G's birthday. He would be 36. It's his first birthday in Heaven. It's his first birthday that I won't be celebrating since...

We got home last night and are back surrounded by G's things. It is so comforting - his chair, his books, his slippers... At the same...

I'm sitting on the bed with candy wrappers next to me having just spent an hour looking up stupid reality TV gossip online. I'm numbing...

There have been new hard things being at my sister's house. Hers is the first family that we've visited that resembles what ours used to...

G was chronically ill for over a decade. Really, starting in 2008 we began dealing with quickly worsening, scary health situations. He...

I'm an introvert. When G was alive I needed some time alone. I woke up in the morning before P and G so that I could have my coffee,...

Too often we think that blessings are a sign of God's love for us. Falling in love, marriage, having babies, being healthy, growing old,...

I'm tired tonight. During the day I often think of things I want to write about. I'm trying to write every day to catalog this journey...

Today I gave G's car to a family friend who is in need of one for her new job. One of the first things, practical things, I thought of...

Hey Sweetie, Gosh do I miss you. I'm sitting here at the table in your chair. The chair you sat in on the morning of the day you would...

I think grief is aging me. I've always looked young for my age. "Good genes" I would say. My maternal side of the family looks younger...

We. It implies so much. Being a part of a unit. Belonging with someone else. Sharing a life. Sharing decisions. Sharing traditions. ...

Tonight we came home from a trip to an empty house for the second time. Last time I was unprepared for how hard it would be. This time I...

Tonight I finished a quilt for my son that I made out of G's bandanas. G started wearing bandanas on his head the summer before his...

We went skiing today at the slope in my hometown. I haven't been since I was in middle school and it was P's first time. This was...

We're on our second trip away from home since G died - back to my parents' house. A change of scenery does a lot of good. Being out in...

How do you catalogs a life? How do you record the moments, the memories - big and small - that make up a person? What about the less...

Tonight I feel sad. So, so sad. And down. Depressed. I feel overwhelmed. I feel alone. I feel like those who care don't understand...