Hey Sweetie, Gosh do I miss you. I'm sitting here at the table in your chair. The chair you sat in on the morning of the day you would...

I think grief is aging me. I've always looked young for my age. "Good genes" I would say. My maternal side of the family looks younger...

We. It implies so much. Being a part of a unit. Belonging with someone else. Sharing a life. Sharing decisions. Sharing traditions. ...

Tonight we came home from a trip to an empty house for the second time. Last time I was unprepared for how hard it would be. This time I...

We went skiing today at the slope in my hometown. I haven't been since I was in middle school and it was P's first time. This was...

We're on our second trip away from home since G died - back to my parents' house. A change of scenery does a lot of good. Being out in...

How do you catalogs a life? How do you record the moments, the memories - big and small - that make up a person? What about the less...

Tonight I feel sad. So, so sad. And down. Depressed. I feel overwhelmed. I feel alone. I feel like those who care don't understand...

I'm so thankful for counseling. It's hard. But good for me to gain perspective - especially with the disappointment I received...

One of the crappy parts of grieving is broken promises. Today I got the hard news that UN and AA won't be moving to our town. In...

Every night before bed we would say this to each other: Goodnight I love you Best friends Marry you again Keesh In the last few weeks...

I feel so much pressure to be mom & dad to P. Not pressure from the outside, but pressure because I am seeing more clearly than ever how...

"The steadfast love of the LORD never ceases, His mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. ...

I'm no one's priority. I used to be G's. There was someone who thought of me. Prioritized me. Preferred me. Someone who was my...

It's been hard to sleep lately. It's hard to fall asleep. Night is finally my time alone, my time to process, and sometimes my time to...

Last week I finally removed my toe nail polish. It had been on my toes since before G died. A few days later I put on new polish. From...

My counselor reminded me yet again that G's death was a severe mercy. In my grief and longing to see him again, it's easy to forget just...

I saw more people than usual today. A lot of days it's just me and P. Those are hard days. Two hurting people dealing with loss. Today...

I constantly feel like I'm failing. As a mom. As a missionary. As a neighbor. As a daughter. As a recipient of gifts and kindness. My...

I have to vent for a second. I am already so tired of resources for widows that present remarriage as the solution to being a widow. As...