Last week I finally removed my toe nail polish. It had been on my toes since before G died. A few days later I put on new polish. From...

Yesterday, my brother-in-law helped me download over 26,000 pictures onto G's computer from an external hard drive. Over 26,000! I spent...

My counselor reminded me yet again that G's death was a severe mercy. In my grief and longing to see him again, it's easy to forget just...

There are so many things I want to remember. G's laugh - especially his ridiculous one that sounded like a single goose honk. All of...

How is he really gone? My best friend. The love of my life. My husband. My safe place. The one who has always felt like home. The one who...

About a month ago I tried to go to my online Bible study. I thought it would be encouraging to see the other women and hear Truth from...

This morning I was reading my devotional off my phone and I noticed that my left hand was shaking. It felt really odd and uncomfortable....

Today is the 2 month anniversary of G's death. Yesterday I finally was able to back through some of the emails that were sent between me...

Today is my first Valentine's Day without G since we started dating. Our first Valentine's was in 2005 and we started dating the fall of...

I woke up feeling okay this morning. Even hopeful! As if I could keep going and life might have joys in it. Maybe there is a future...

Regret is hard. Looking back at the day G died, the week G died, the months before G died, I wish I could change some of the things I...

Every night I look at pictures. Starting in 2007 (the ones on this computer), I've been going through - adding them to special memory...

Today is our first anniversary after G died - the one month anniversary of his death. I hate that all of our special days and all of our...

This morning is one month since G died. One month since I woke up to find he was already awake - he was having such trouble sleeping...

It's been more than 10 years since I was ushered into a community that I never meant to be a part of - a community of women who live...