I constantly feel like I'm failing. As a mom. As a missionary. As a neighbor. As a daughter. As a recipient of gifts and kindness. My...

The sunrise is gorgeous here this morning. The sky is lit with oranges, pinks and purples. The kind of sunrise that doesn't even make...

I have to vent for a second. I am already so tired of resources for widows that present remarriage as the solution to being a widow. As...

There are so many things I want to remember. G's laugh - especially his ridiculous one that sounded like a single goose honk. All of...

This morning I heard about another woman who was widowed this week. She works for the same organization as me and has 3 kids. Her...

How is he really gone? My best friend. The love of my life. My husband. My safe place. The one who has always felt like home. The one who...

I miss having someone that I have inside jokes with. G and I would constantly catch each other's eyes across a table, a room, or a...

My brother in law came today. P and I have been alone for 9 days - our longest stretch so far. It has been HARD for both of us. Having...

About a month ago I tried to go to my online Bible study. I thought it would be encouraging to see the other women and hear Truth from...

This morning I was reading my devotional off my phone and I noticed that my left hand was shaking. It felt really odd and uncomfortable....

Today is the 2 month anniversary of G's death. Yesterday I finally was able to back through some of the emails that were sent between me...

A note or a card in the mail Other people sharing that they miss G Meals and groceries being provided Giftcards for coffee Little gifts...

Is a burning hole in my chest. An ache. An emptiness. Right beneath my sternum. It throbs when I miss him. Those moments when it...

I think the most comforting words I've heard in this whole process is that what I'm experiencing is normal. Grief is unlike anything else....

On teaching my son math. Today was horrible. I cannot homeschool, and be mom, and take care of everything with finances, and look for...

Today is my first Valentine's Day without G since we started dating. Our first Valentine's was in 2005 and we started dating the fall of...

Being a single parent is harder than I could've imagined. And it's very different than parenting on your own because your spouse is away....

I woke up feeling okay this morning. Even hopeful! As if I could keep going and life might have joys in it. Maybe there is a future...

We drove home today. The drive went so well and P had a great attitude. Even though yesterday he was furious at the idea of coming home....

I completed my 4th private school application for my son today. Part of it was a parental review of the child's behavior which included...