Two minutes before a call with my boss (who thankfully is also my friend), I listened to a voice memo from my sister. It completely...

Looking at G's life, you wouldn't think that he had been delivered from trouble. Trouble seemed to be a present companion. Abused as a...

My counselor told me about a saying her daughter uses: "Follow the breadcrumbs". The breadcrumbs that are the slow unveiling of your life...

A year ago today - actually 35 minutes from now- we buried G. I looked through pictures of that day yesterday because I honestly don't...

The family leaves and the loneliness returns. I am searching for something - someone- to take away the loneliness. P isn't the answer. ...

I made it to the other side of yesterday. By God's grace alone I lived through another day that I never would've thought was possible...

One year ago, I woke up a little early, surprised to find G standing by the bed and a light on. He was restless and told me he'd been...

Otherwise known at 364 days after G died. His favorite way to refer to someone who loved Jesus dying and going to be with him was...

Last night was a bit of a disaster. Not in the sense that it did any lasting damage. But it sure hurt my pride and was full of bad...

One year ago, I could never have imagined what this next week would bring. One year ago was a normal Saturday. Sure, one affected by G...

I drove to my meeting yesterday - Christmas cards and Nerds Rope in a bag, ready to be shared. But the tears started welling up below...

Nerds Rope was G's favorite candy to get in his Christmas stocking. I learned this the first Christmas we spent together at his family's...

The night before G died, we got him comfortable for the first time in at least a week. I had spent much of the previous day on the phone...

Last night at Grief Share, I was reminded that there is danger in taking on the identity of a griever. I am in grief, yes. I am a widow....

I called the hospital's billing department this morning, thinking there was a simple clerical mistake. I had paid a bill - a bill that I...

Thanksgiving. My first one without G since he came with me to Massachusetts in 2006. He had just had his first cardiac arrest,...

I've been distracting myself lately. Day dreaming about a future that could be. Imagining myself in a new relationship. Rescued in a...

My rings. I'm so aware of them lately. My hands tell you that I am married. Unavailable. I have a husband. He is here - present...

I'm always looking for an escape route. When G was sick, it was sometimes denial, sometimes anger, sometimes fantasizing about what life...

"For my father and my mother have forsaken me, but the LORD will take me in." I feel forsaken sometimes. Alone. Forgotten maybe - but...