Yesterday, I got a text from my brother-in-law about Arby's. He had just eaten there and thought that maybe G liked Arby's but couldn't...

Today marks our 14th anniversary. G isn't here but I still feel married to him in my heart. I wear my rings and cannot imagine taking...

I had a chance to go on a walk and think for the first time in weeks. And of course I started thinking about G. Gosh have I been missing...

Today is the 5 month anniversary of G's death. I'm sitting at the table facing "his chair", the one he sat in that last morning as we...

I think I cried my way through April. Easter, all three birthdays, the 4 month anniversary of G's death. My first time having to...

For weeks now I've been working on the slideshow for G's memorial service. Taking thousands and thousands of pictures and sorting...

One of the phrases I heard seemingly throughout my whole life is that "it takes a village to raise a child". I never wanted it to take a...

At first I think it was just wrapping my mind around the reality that G was gone. He died. He DIED. Just comprehending that. He's not...

My thoughts are muddled today. It's our first Easter without G. We are at my sister's house and so it hasn't felt real - not the way...

G was chronically ill for over a decade. Really, starting in 2008 we began dealing with quickly worsening, scary health situations. He...

There's nothing quite like falling in love. I've been going through an album of pictures from college that starts in the very first days...

Today was rough. So many emotions. So tired of everything and every day being so hard. It hit me at the cardiologist this morning that I...

Tomorrow the DNA test kit should arrive. It's a 50% chance that P inherited ARVD/C from G - the genetic condition that caused his first...

Today I gave G's car to a family friend who is in need of one for her new job. One of the first things, practical things, I thought of...

Hey Sweetie, Gosh do I miss you. I'm sitting here at the table in your chair. The chair you sat in on the morning of the day you would...

Every night before bed we would say this to each other: Goodnight I love you Best friends Marry you again Keesh In the last few weeks...

Is G's life a tragedy? His story is one of abuse as a young child by the very people who should've protected him. Of painful years of...

I've been having this really strong need to celebrate G lately. I think part of it comes from looking at old pictures. I've found...

I feel so much pressure to be mom & dad to P. Not pressure from the outside, but pressure because I am seeing more clearly than ever how...

A couple days ago I found the DVD of our wedding. We hadn't watched it in years - a decade maybe? I was struck by so many things. How...