There have been new hard things being at my sister's house. Hers is the first family that we've visited that resembles what ours used to...

I'm an introvert. When G was alive I needed some time alone. I woke up in the morning before P and G so that I could have my coffee,...

We started our big trip yesterday. 6.5 hours in the car with a stop at a little zoo. I am so proud of myself for doing it. First road...

I'm tired tonight. During the day I often think of things I want to write about. I'm trying to write every day to catalog this journey...

It's weird how exhausting grief is. Emotionally and mentally I am just spent. Add to that not sleeping well, dreaming about G and...

Today was rough. So many emotions. So tired of everything and every day being so hard. It hit me at the cardiologist this morning that I...

Tomorrow the DNA test kit should arrive. It's a 50% chance that P inherited ARVD/C from G - the genetic condition that caused his first...

Tonight we came home from a trip to an empty house for the second time. Last time I was unprepared for how hard it would be. This time I...

We went skiing today at the slope in my hometown. I haven't been since I was in middle school and it was P's first time. This was...

I'm so thankful for counseling. It's hard. But good for me to gain perspective - especially with the disappointment I received...

I feel so much pressure to be mom & dad to P. Not pressure from the outside, but pressure because I am seeing more clearly than ever how...

I'm no one's priority. I used to be G's. There was someone who thought of me. Prioritized me. Preferred me. Someone who was my...

I constantly feel like I'm failing. As a mom. As a missionary. As a neighbor. As a daughter. As a recipient of gifts and kindness. My...