Thank You Notes

I wrote my first thank you note two days ago. My church has been amazing (it's hard in my head to switch from our to my - but I just did it). Just one of the things, the latest thing they did, was send the FULL cost of G's funeral home services to the funeral home and I got a check reimbursing me. The check will cover tuition for P next year at any of the private schools I am looking at. I had to thank them.

It felt easier writing to the church than to an individual person. Less intimate - less emotionally taxing.

I have so many more thank you notes to write. I even have beautiful cards with our family picture and little inserts with us and G's favorite Bible verses.

But what do I say? Thanks for the money - but I wish I had my honey? Okay that is lame but it rhymed and made me laugh. Dark humor is striking me as funny this week.

I really don't know what to say. There aren't words for how hard grief is. How much I miss G. How devastated I am.

But I did do one and that felt like a big step in healing.