I woke up feeling okay. After wrapping my mind around what day it was (the usual wake up and figure out what's on my plate for the day)...

Today would be 15 years of marriage. 15 years since we said I do. I've had this song in my head by Andrew Peterson since I woke up this...

I've spent 2.5 hours today crying and processing all that God is doing in my heart. My counselor says this is a landmark day. Like the...

A year ago today - actually 35 minutes from now- we buried G. I looked through pictures of that day yesterday because I honestly don't...

One year ago, I woke up a little early, surprised to find G standing by the bed and a light on. He was restless and told me he'd been...

Otherwise known at 364 days after G died. His favorite way to refer to someone who loved Jesus dying and going to be with him was...

It's been almost 1 year since G died. I have so many mixed emotions and so many confused thoughts. On one hand, this has felt like the...

One year ago, I could never have imagined what this next week would bring. One year ago was a normal Saturday. Sure, one affected by G...

I called the hospital's billing department this morning, thinking there was a simple clerical mistake. I had paid a bill - a bill that I...

Thanksgiving. My first one without G since he came with me to Massachusetts in 2006. He had just had his first cardiac arrest,...

Grief feels like nausea. A heaviness in my chest. A desire to ignore the obvious: G is gone. Grief is too hard to be faced. So I...

September 28, 2020 is a day I won't forget. Looking back now, I see it as the beginning of the end. Yes, G had been hospitalized in...

September 19th. 9 months since G died. Over the last two nights when I lay down in bed, I have been flooded with memories of the night...

Today is 8 months since G died. It's been 8 months since he sat across from me at the table where I am sitting now and drank a glass of...

Today marks our 14th anniversary. G isn't here but I still feel married to him in my heart. I wear my rings and cannot imagine taking...

I'm feeling really down tonight. My heart feels heavy. G would call it "feeling blue". 5 months and two days. Yesterday I sobbed when...

Today is the 5 month anniversary of G's death. I'm sitting at the table facing "his chair", the one he sat in that last morning as we...