Yesterday I went to a co-worker's wedding. My first wedding since G died. First wedding without him by my side since my brother got...

A picture brought back a flood of memories. Christmas morning 2018. P opening a gift. G sitting up beside him - but slumped over...

"No good thing does he withhold from those who walk uprightly." - Psalm 84:11 I came across this verse this morning in my Psalms...

I can't go back. The life I had with G is gone. Gone. Nearly everything has changed. I'm still at the same house, but it's different...

I realized today that I still have to live one day at a time. That God's will unfolds one day at a time. His leading happens one day at...

Two minutes before a call with my boss (who thankfully is also my friend), I listened to a voice memo from my sister. It completely...

My counselor told me about a saying her daughter uses: "Follow the breadcrumbs". The breadcrumbs that are the slow unveiling of your life...

I made it to the other side of yesterday. By God's grace alone I lived through another day that I never would've thought was possible...

Otherwise known at 364 days after G died. His favorite way to refer to someone who loved Jesus dying and going to be with him was...

It's been almost 1 year since G died. I have so many mixed emotions and so many confused thoughts. On one hand, this has felt like the...

One year ago, I could never have imagined what this next week would bring. One year ago was a normal Saturday. Sure, one affected by G...

I drove to my meeting yesterday - Christmas cards and Nerds Rope in a bag, ready to be shared. But the tears started welling up below...

The night before G died, we got him comfortable for the first time in at least a week. I had spent much of the previous day on the phone...

Thanksgiving. My first one without G since he came with me to Massachusetts in 2006. He had just had his first cardiac arrest,...

My rings. I'm so aware of them lately. My hands tell you that I am married. Unavailable. I have a husband. He is here - present...

One of the hardest parts of grief lately is realizing that I have to let go of G. I have to let go of our relationship and the life we...

I remember that I ran into my neighbor - I think it was on the way to the hospital or maybe when I was outside on the phone with the...

September 28, 2020 is a day I won't forget. Looking back now, I see it as the beginning of the end. Yes, G had been hospitalized in...