I realized today that I can't find my future while I'm running away from my past. Life has changed so much since G died - this is true. ...

I've been feeling that old feeling again. That pit in my stomach. The nausea I associate with losing G. The constant, unending feeling...

It's time to tell our story. When we began our heart transplant journey in January of 2010, we felt so alone. Being listed for a heart...

My goodness, how is my boy finishing 2nd grade tomorrow? A grade that G wasn't here for at all. He's up to my shoulders now and growing...

I've spent 2.5 hours today crying and processing all that God is doing in my heart. My counselor says this is a landmark day. Like the...

Why is a big question. And it's one I don't like to ask. Because there aren't any answers on this side of Heaven. Why did G die? Why...

I'm sitting at Panera this morning and there's a couple outside the window. Neither are wearing wedding rings. Both are probably in...

I need a new dream. I've been waiting for someone to give one to me, and I've felt aimless. Maybe remarriage has become my new dream. ...

I had an incredible husband. A really, really good one. He was not perfect. Of course not. His sin nature, his humanity, was all to...

It hurts to be ignored. It just does. Back in the winter, when I had trouble in my house and sent HW a text, he responded right away and...

God gives us protection and provision. No - God IS our protection and provision. As I've been chasing down this relationship with HW...

It is amazing how much can be revealed in a day. A day of letting it soak in that whatever relationship I thought I had with HW and...

This hurts. I woke up and it still hurts. But it does feels a little different - or maybe I'm just getting some clarity. I tried way too...

I was friend-zoned but I was doubting it. After all, the next day he was flirting with me over text again like nothing had happened. So...

I was friend-zoned HARD last night It stings. It's disappointing. My friendship with HW has grown since we first met in November and our...

It's Mother's Day again. My second without G here. I truly can't remember last year. What did we do? Did we celebrate? I feel sure...

A friend of mine recently asked how she could help her dear friend whose husband died unexpectedly. It's hard for me to remember much...

Today I'm taking a big leap. A trust fall off a cliff, waiting for Jesus to catch me. We fly to Bogota, Colombia today. First time back...

It's been a big week. Saturday was P's 8th birthday party. We also went to G's favorite restaurant (Buffalo Wild Wings) in his honor and...

I took my wedding band off of my right hand last night. And now I'm down to one ring. Later this week, I travel with my son to a country...